Don't take this the wrong way but I often wonder "what if I had never met Tom". What if I hadn't decided to go over to Ryan's house, had never gotten screwed over by the guy I was currently dating and if Tom had never swooped in to cheer me up when I felt like crap...? What if...? Well, I would probably still be the hardass I used to be when I was in a relationship. I honestly used to make my boyfriend's cry! It's true! I always wore the pants in the relationship. Then Tom came along and there was no way I was gonna be that way with him. He wouldn't let me! And I realized he was the kind of guy I should've been dating all along. LOL. Ok, back to "what if". The biggest thing is Rori wouldn't be here which would be horrible because I can't imagine life without her now. But I would be alot more trusting and carefree because I would never have had my heart broken. Not to the extent it was shattered. I would never have had the intense hatred that I carry in my heart everyday of my life...that never fades or diminishes.
I wouldn't trade me and Tom's relationship for the world. He is 100% my soulmate but even soulmates aren't perfect. So I often think "what if.." but in the end what I have now is worth the torment I endured. Would I do it all over again? No. But I am very happy with how it turned out and it is what it is.
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